"I'm leaving those memories there because one day you're going to write a book."
These were the words I heard the day I was looking up in the sky, talking to the God of the sky; contemplating dying at 10 years old and wanted this God of the sky to take me out. I never thought any more about it. The words seemed to bring a ray of hope and came with such authority I didn't question further.
I went on with life as usual, my mother relocating to Brooklyn, New York, where I grew up, finished my schooling, got married, had a child, divorced, married a second time to a man who was diagnosed with a terminal illness and I thought, "My life has never had any long term good."
While he went through his treatments, one day I cried out to this God whom I had no clue and asked, "Why have I suffered so,when am I going to catch a break?" Suddenly, I became aware of scenes flashing through my mind, all the way back to my childhood; I even heard my unspoken thoughts being spoken in my hearing, thoughts I dare not share with anyone, but I was hearing them replayed back like a recording. A weight of my past dropped off of my shoulders, I felt lighter, filled with peace and joy; all I could do was declare, God is real; God is real." Who else could know my inner thoughts; what I thought but never verbalized?
I couldn't contain myself, joy was overflowing; suddenly, I wanted to call and tell everyone what just happened to me, but nobody was available to hear my good news at the time. My chains had fallen away.
As I was experiencing this moment, I then heard, "Now you can write the book." For a moment I sobered to hear myself say, "Book, I don't know anything about writing a book." The voice said, I'll be with you, guiding you."
Not only was I guided, but went on to help over 450 others to write and publish their stories. My husband got involved. He use to say, "She's the brains and I'm the workhorse."
His terminal illness did not take his life; instead we enjoyed 34 years of marriage after his healing. He passed in 2018 and I continue to carry on. There are more stories to be catalogued in books and I believe my assignment is to continue being that coach/publisher for the first time author who has a story to share.
Blessings to you
Blondie L. Clayton,
In His Service
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